Call me ignorant or plain stupid. I didn't know that almond came from peach till my dad showed me.
Such lil' things makes me feel young. Bwahaha.

Blah!

Day 3 of "War week". It was horrendous and I wondered how did Tracy cope with such load for 7 years?
I was so damn busy every single minute (except lunch time) that I wish I have 4 hours and another brain to work with.
I was so damn busy that I felt like a pregnant woman. Heartburn, dizzy spells, nauseated and all.
I was so damn busy that I can hardly walk a straight line on my way home.
I was so damn busy that I gobbled my dinner cos' my stomach feels so empty (though I dont really feel hungry), I just need the energy.
I was so damn busy that I have no time/strength to blog.

But again I tell myself to keep entertained by such responsibility and part of me enjoy what I am doing cos' I have absolute control and authority.

I have been thinking on what are the future career paths to take.

I was caught in between in doing something I would like to do but will never provide that kinda challenge-satisfaction and pay that would never earn me a overseas trip and doing something that means fucking work and practicing self-motivation month after month.

And in between that, I was weighing against the thought of "You are young and ought to slog it out before anything. Do what the society has to offer and then settle down for something you think you like." and "How long do you know you can live?Living's only once and you should always do something you wanna/think you like to do."

Would it be a just lingering thought and remains a resolution year after year for most of us here?

This is not only a 22 yr old problem. This could be the problem for most half-awake
ind-uhviduals like us. Of cos' the younger you are, the lighter the whole issue it could be.
Imagine if you are married and tied with a family, you think you can afford to give that thought a thought?

I thought I am just waiting for time to ripe before I can go.
Maybe that and maybe I wanna stay on to hit a peak before leaving.
Maybe that or I am hesistating cos' I have no concrete plans yet.
Maybe that or I know leaving here is a very difficult thing to do cos' the culture here is so family on the good days and it won't be as easy as just tendering a resignation letter to boss.

I am just telling myself now to buck up and keep upbeat.(as much as possible)

Life's worth living cos' we have too much.(count simple things in life like your regular breakfast)

And like Jason's chirpy voice last night.
He was in such a good mood that I almost doubt it was him I'm talking to. Not that he is often in a bad mood but he was extra chirpy last night. And he told me it could be the good weather.
Why not tell me it's because of me?
Haha.

Anyway,TGIF tomorrow.
><..Day 4, sigh~~~~~~Charge!